I THINK I'M PREGNANT??

 

Well!!! I didn't think the day would ever come that I would make this post!

Daniel and I have been trying for a baby for a couple months (pretty awkward cause we're also living at my parents) but I still feel like I'm in shock!

    Let me start at the beginning. First of all, this all just happened yesterday and nobody knows but me and Daniel. It's still very fresh and I'm very cautiously optimistic. 

    So in November of '20, I officially went off birth control. We knew that even if we got pregnant right away, Daniel would have his full time job at Goldman Sachs (insurance) and we would both be graduated 9 months from then. We also didn't really feel strongly that we should start trying, but we didn't feel like we shouldn't. 

    Fast forward to March 3, 2021. The previous 2 days I had been SOOOOooooSOOOooo tired. SO tired. Which is pretty uncharacteristic for me, I'm often tired, but I'm still a pretty motivated person and I love to get things done. But when 3:00-:3:30 rolled around each day, I literally couldn't keep my eyes open I was SO tired. And I was getting around 8 hrs of sleep a night, so there wasn't any reason for me to be tired. I also had started breaking out a TON over the last week. I am very familiar with regular breakouts, I still get them all the time, but I was even breaking out on my forehead, which NEVER happens. So I was sitting on the couch working, trying so hard to keep my eyes open, and I figured I should take a pregnancy test just to rule out pregnancy as a factor to why I was so tired. This was 4 days before my period was supposed to start and I "knew" that even if I was pregnant, I wouldn't be feeling any symptoms yet. I also "knew" that it was way too early for it to show up on a test if I was pregnant. But I really felt so off, I just needed to take one to make sure that wasn't it. 

    I ran downstairs to grab my secret stash of pregnancy tests, and because I knew I wasn't pregnant, I grabbed the cheap ones so I could save the good ones for when I was actually pregnant. I had never used the cheap test before, but basically if there's one line, you're not pregnant, if there's two then you are. I did my thing and checked the stick and there was very obviously 2 lines.. I was so confused because a) I didn't think I was pregnant, and b) even if I was it was WAY too early for it to show up on a test, I couldn't have been more than 2 weeks pregnant. If anything, I would have expected a very faint, questionable line. But there was obviously two! Slightly freaking out, I ran down to get a better test, because this test was cheap and I hadn't ever used one before so it couldn't be right. Well I take the second one, and there's TWO LINES.

    At this point I realize it's probably not a mistake to have two tests tell me I'm pregnant so I kind of started freaking out. I didn't cry, which surprised me, but I really think I was just in shock. My hands were shaking so bad and I was just pacing. (Max could tell something was up and was following me everywhere). I ran downstairs to show the tests to Daniel (I thought very briefly about surprising him and telling him in some really cutesy way, but I was just too panicked, I needed someone else to tell me if there were 2 lines). He reacted exactly as I thought he would, panic. Haha! He just immediately started researching stuff, and he did hug me and tell me he was excited, but he was so scared. I told him that I wanted to take one more test the next morning when my pee was more concentrated and see if there was still two lines. (but I preceded to take like 5 of the cheap tests throughout the day, all of them had varying degrees of two lines)

    The second picture was from the next morning (today!) and it was already so much darker.

    I haven't had a lot of time to process and I still don't really know how to feel. My period is supposed to start in 3 days, so if nothing happens, I think I'll start freaking out a little more then.

Right now I'm just trying not to get my hopes up in case something happens. But I am soooooo thrilled. If everything is accurate and this is a viable pregnancy, I assume I'll be due in November. So we could have a baby by Christmas!!!! I am FREAKING OUT.

I haven't really let myself get too excited yet, we'll see what the next couple of days bring, but I just wanted to document this just in case.

I am already thinking of how I'm going to tell everyone and who I'm going to tell first. And if it's a boy or girl. And what names I like. But then I stop myself and tell myself not to get too excited yet. 

So I guess we'll see!

I am dying to tell my mom because I need to talk to someone that's been through this but I will wait and see if my period comes.

Here's to being cautiously optimistic.